Just rambling...

Well, I have tried writing this post several times. I have come to the conclusion that my life is not real exciting right now. Although I am too busy for my own good, it is not real exciting. I am trying to get the Junior Ring banquet planned, and between that and basketball, I have been at school just about every saturday for a long time. That is what I am doing now. My class officers have just left.

I miss Michigan again. I am not sure that I miss the cold, but it is kinda chilly here anyhow. But I miss my friends and family. I had a lot of fun this summer with my friends and I miss being part of their lives and them being a part of mine. This has made me think a lot about what I want to do, but I still come to the conclusion, that I have no idea. There have been several blessings here, but I'm just tired. I'm feeling tired of everything and feel like I have no one to lean on. I just want someone to tell me that it's okay, it's going to be okay, or that I'm not doing everything wrong. However, I don't feel like I have that right now. I feel like everything I have done is being criticized and nothing is good enough. Every time I try to do something, there is always a critique about it or that I shouldn't even bother or something else.

I tired. I'm tired of a lot of things.

There is this quote from Nicholas Nickelby, (it's in the movie at least) and it says "It is tiring being weak, but it is exhausting being strong." This is kind of how I feel. Actually that is exactly how I feel. I am tired of having to have the answers, and to solve the problems, and to figure out what this child is doing wrong, and how to fix this situation. I'm tired, and just for a little bit, I would like to not have to have the answers.

I know, that won't happen. I don't get to have the option, but I would really like to. Until then, I'll just "keep on, keepin' on." (That's what my grandma always says to do... I guess I'll try it.)