Changes

So many changes. Although it can be exciting coming home, it can also be a bit sad. I know that I live my life everyday in Memphis, and that I change because of the experiences I have, but it is also sometimes hard to realize that things here continue to change. It is not that it is bad that it changes, but it seems to continue to remind me that I am not quite part of things.

I have had several of those encounters today. It is not bad, but it sometimes makes me a bit sad. Yet, I have enjoyed living my life. I enjoy being the person who I am. However, it is still hard to talk to someone and see how much their lives are changing. Things like people getting married and having children - they are great things, but yet things change. It is good that it changes, but it is kind of sad that I have been missing so many things.

Now, does me missing so many things make me want to move back to MI? I'm not quite sure yet. I don't know that it means I want to stay in Memphis either. However, it does make me think about what it is I want to do - yes, part of that involves teaching, but the where part is the question. I don't know if living in Memphis fulfills all that I want it to - I thoroughly enjoy teaching at Harding, I love the students and people that I am involved with, but is that the only thing I want to do? Where else is it that God is leading me? Should I be taking these job offers seriously? Could I better serve God in one of those places? These are all questions that are running through my head, now if only I could find some answers.

I guess my life continues to change too...